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My grandma has left last night and I’m so sad,, I’ll be lonely again 

I’m leaving too for a while, u know I’ts my graduating semester and I must do some effort for my project and the finals…

Wish me a good luck…

15.05.1983 My Birthday

 6ab3an mn jatna my grandma wana 24 hours mgaaablat’haa,, anam o as7aa o akil o ashrab m3ahaaaa…. But then,, 3la gad ma ajlis m3aha 3la gad ma at2athar ebkaaamhaaa… Walla ma 3dt as7es bnafseee,, sarlee 5 days be7ki lebnaaaaaaaaaaani looool,,, walla 7alti sa3baaaa,,, galaaabt marra wa7daaa  
Lot of things happened m3 mama noor,, 3aad bema enha ga3ed tsoolif  m3 mama now (Amoot o a3arf shloon yefhmoon ba3ath mama tetkalam typical kuwaity o jadeti typical lebnani ),, basoolef lokom shwaya 3an el ashyaa elle saroo pass days: 

 ***As I told u mn kether ma ga3adt m3 jadeti,, sert be7ki lebnaani :P,, mama from 3 days radat mn el
Kuwait,, 3ad asalem 3aleeha agoolaha (Hi mama keefek?? Keefa lekuwait ,, galat akhaaf bs bent omich noor mo bentee )..   ***O5oooy agoola leesh ma t6ale3na ana o mama noor café or something,, ya3nee tetmasha shwaya m3aana,, galee im busy mo fathee,, getla YA 2ALEEL ELZOOO2, YA BALA A5LAAA2 :P,, gaaaal haaaa??? Heeey tra fashalteeena ebkalaamich,, elnaas gamo yshekoon ma yadroon entee mn wain  

***6ala3t ma3 Mama Noor amasheeha shwaya bel soog wel malls o everywhere,, chan tgool,, Esmalla el Riyadh kteeer mghayra,, sho sayer,, hay2too el Malik 3abdalla mfata7 kteer mesh metl elly abloo,, (Loool alla yhadaaha ftha7atna o tekalam bsoot 3aale :P),, aslan ana kteer 7abaytoo lal Malik 3abdalla,, mbayan aadamee o metwaade3 o be7eb sha3boo.. (3la raseee rayek ya mama nor :P)

***I used to know a kuwaity guy mn kan 3omree 17,, and we broke up mn senaa,, 6ab3an ana ma akhabee shee 3an mama noor, t3arf every single thing about me,, so that guy kan very close to me ladarajat kanat mama noor t7eba cuz ana a7eba o kan dayman ykalimha ysalim 3leeha,, o ydale3haa, like in mother’s day o bemlnasabaaat yeb3atlaa bouquet worood… 6ab3an ehya marra ze3lat lamma I broke up m3aah (kenna ohwa 7afeedha mo ana :P) 3ad asma3ha awalt ams tekalam bel telephone like (Eee ee 7abeb 2albee,, la2aa ma 7keeta 3an shee,, bs akeeda abel ma erja3 3a lebnaan ra7 e7keeha) when I came ga3adt yamhaa, asma3 soot GUY mo ghareeb 3lai,, mn shafatnee galat (Eee ok be7keek ba3dan ya ebnee)!! Mama noor mo 3awayedha tkhabee 3anni shy!! I asked her mno tkalmeen mn waraay akhaaaf 7abba wa7id mn ba3ad jaddi :P,, galat a3oozo bellah,, o eza faradan b7eb wa7id b2ello ya ebnee!! getlaha ee sa7 sorry neseet :P,, this moment Baba came o enga63at elsalfaaa

***Ams kent 7a6a rasee 3la mama noor lap,, o ga3ed tel3ab bsha3ree and this conversation goes (6ab3an 3adee tra ana atkalam lebnani m3 jadeti ):

  Mama Noor: 3asfoooretna ray2ee hallaDeem: Etha mama noor 3anna akeed bseer ray2aaMama Noor: Eee lakan baddi e7ki ma3ek mawdoo3,, bs ma tenfe3lee..Deem: lahasabab sharabteeni Laymoon belne3na3 o tel3abe bsha3ree Mama Noor: Eee leesh la,, lakan esma3eeni,, btetzakari embare7 ana o 3am e7ki bel telephone? Bta3rfee kent be7kee m3 meen?Deem: Eee nseet es2alik,, m3 meen?Mama Noor: Bta36eeni el amaaan????Deem: Loool ayya amaan,, aslan meen makan entee dayman b2amaan Mama Noor:
Kent 3am e7kii m3a S3ood.. Hnee ana gemt mn makaaaani o gabalt’haaa,, S3ood?? Keef o leeesh?Mama Noor: Ya bentee,, ya 3asfoortee ya 7abeebet alibi elshab jan mn yawm elly traktee,, thal ye7kee ma3ee byes2lnee 3annek.. o bs 3eref ana jayee la hawn 6alab menni e7ki ma3ek bmawdoo3 eljwaaz.. 

 (Ok guys for your information, I never loved a guy as much as I loved S3ood,, he’s my first love ever, he took care of me, o loved me akthar mn ma ana 7abeeta,, bs ohwa fee 3aib which I can’t live with,, 3ASABEE,, and what makes him nervous,, enna ghayoooooooooooooor,, o yshek,, ya3nee mathalan if I didn’t answer him for any reason 3la6ool yshek enna fee shee o ykhaaaf o yetwatar so here Y3aseb.. ba3dane yet2asaff o plzzz sam7eeni o ana ma agsed bs ghasbaan 3anne o hal kalaam!! One day,, kalamnee 3an elzawaj,, Here where we broke up,, cuz lamma fakart deeply,, ok ana gadra akamil m3aa now because I love him, but then he’s not my husband,, o mo 3aysha m3aah eb bait wa7id,, bs law atzawaja hal ra7 at7amal hal 3asabeyya?? 7ta law adree enna mafe a7ad beldenya ra7 y7ebnee kethraa bs 3asabeeta ga3ed tkhareb kil shy,, so I refused getting married,, o hnee ohwa jann, then we broke up,, hathaa bekhtesaaaaaaar)     6ab3an Mama Noor t7ebba o tgoolee mafe a7ad beldenya ra7 y7ebbek ad ma by7ebek,, o ga3d tkalma mn waraaay 3ashaaan tetwasa6 laa!!!  

Deem: Ya mama halmawdoo3 5lesna menno o entee 3arfa kil shee..Mama Noor: Eee bs ya roo7 emmik ana ma3am ellek tjawazee halla,, bs 3a6ee fersaa,, balkee tghayyar elsabee, o 7atta etha ma tghyya entee fekee tghayree,, ezaa be7ebbek hal2ad,, o elshab senno mesh sgheer (He’s 34) ya3nee feeeh yetjawaz ghayrek,, bs ma baddo,, mesh aaader yshoof 7ada ghayrek… Lek ya 3asfoortee S3ood kteer 6ayeb,, o bta3rfee ana adeesh b7ebbek o bkhaaf 3laiki,, law mesh m2akadee enno elshab elly ra7 7es belamaan lamma tkoone ma3oo,, mara7 ellik fakir belmawdoo3….  Mn ams wana afakkir o men3eged lsaaani,, madree shfeenii,, kenna kalaam jadeti 5addarnii walla madree shagool!!!

OMG I was surpriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiised today,,, bs a7la surprise beldenyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,, walla le el7een mani msadgaaaa mn elfar7aaaaaa…
I’m posting cuz I wanna share far7eeetee m3aaaakom,, I’m soooooooooooooo HAPPY…

Last night I was having dinner with baba,, and he asked me what time do u come back from work, told him at 1pm. An he said “Eee zain zain”!! Getla what is it!! Galee bokra t3arfeeen!!!

6ab3aan mafee shaghla beldenyaaa ma fakart feeha,, Its that baba mo 3awaydaa yfaaje2nee!! He’s 24 hours busy o ma ashoofa wayed!! So shno elshaghlaa elly mkhabeeeha!!!!!!!!!!! Met o 7ayeet wana afakir,, bs NOTHING on my mind!!!

Today, I was at home around 1:30,, and I totally forgot what baba told me last night!!
6ala3t foog,, Ella ashoof baba!!! (Mo 3awayda yred el bait hal7azza)!!
Salamt 3la baba,, and I turned to go to my room 3ashan abadel,, and here was the SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!

“MY GRANDMA, MAMA NOOR”

Saraaaaaaaaaaa5t sar5aaaaaaaaaaaa mn el sadmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,, ma asaaaadeeeeg Mama Noor here (maskeeena e5tar3aaaat mn sar5eteee :P) ,,, I hugged her like nos sa3aaaaa o ga3da abkiiiiii,, o baba ygooolee bs khalaaas khalha tetnafaaas,,, ma agdar ma agdar,,, I miss her sooooooooo much,, el7ayaaaa bdoonha is sucks walla…..

Ok guys,, akeed you’re asking yourselves,, whats so surprising about that!!!!!
Well,my grandma is Lebanese,, o mn twafa Jaddi (5 years ago) ra7at Lebnan,, ma tabee t3eesh hena mn ba3adah… 6ab3an it was so difficult for me enha troo7, cuz she was the one who took care of me, tnawemni, tghaneeli, tga3dni mn elnoom, tsoolif m3aay,, te7keeli swalifha gabel,,, everythiiiiiiiiiiiiing,,, I love her,, amooot feeeha..

So she’s here now,, btag3ed 3endna two weeks,, waaaaaay le el7een mo msadgaaaa..

I miss you Mama Noor,, I miss your hug, I miss your warm voice, I miss you playing with my hair and telling me stories, I miss lama anadeech o tgooleen “Shoo ya 2albi”,, I miss lama u call me “3asfooretna”,, I miss your TABOOLEE “Best tabooola EVER”, I miss lama tghaneeli wagt elnoom:

عاليادي اليادي اليادي
ياامي لعبيدية
وحياة عهد الهوا
لارجعك لياااا

ياحلوه ياللي القمر بيضل ناطوورك
عشقان ناوي السهرب فيت زهوووورك
والليل ياخد صور والنجمات تزوورك
بكرا بيطل السحر وبترجعي لييااا

And

يالله تنااام يالله تناااام
ولدبحله جوز الحمااام
روح يا حمام لا تصدء
بدحك عا ديما تتنام

ديما ديما الحندأاا
شعرك أسود ومنأاا
واللي حبك بيبوسك
واللي بغضك شو بيترقأااا

I love you,, I love you,, I loooooooooooooooove yoooou mama noor,, alla la ya7remniii minich… Yalla mabee athaye3 wagtee writing,, baroo7 ag3ed m3aha