When Depression Owns the Heart

Jpm2upmMon, 19 Feb 2007 20:40:23 +000007 19, 2007

When Depression Owns the Heart
 
 

 

A depression so deep it finds a way into the Soul,

and travels through every pore of your Heart.

A depression so large it encompasses every bit
of your Reality,

and leaves Reality a cloudy memory.

A depression so dense it compresses every will
you once had,

and bows you down to accept it as it’s own.

A depression so devious it takes you piece by piece,

and consumes each piece day by day.

A depression so truly disheartening,

and leaves you no other emotions.

A depression so dangerous,

and kills,

everything,

inside,

of you.

“DARREL KINCAID

 

Deem Has Met Him Today :)

Jam2uamThu, 15 Feb 2007 00:51:01 +000007 19, 2007

 Him = Elkha6eeb elydeed :)

Yes guys,, we’ve met,, and galbi le el7eeeeen yergaaaaaaaaaaaaaa3… here is all what happened:

 His mum called tgool enna 3la elwa3ad elyoom ra7 ymer 3leekom (Msh) 3ogb el magharb… 6ab3an ana estaathant mn el Bank telling them I have an appointment, o radeat home 3ashaaan astaw3eb elly beyseer!!!

Walla law bagabel wa7id bel work, bel soog or 7ata belshare3 ma kheft halkhoof,, o madri if this feeling is met3aleg belkhe6ba o bs!!

Lebast o ga3adt m3 mama astanah… ran el jaras mn hena o galbi enkhala3 mn hena :P dakhalooh 3la maktab baba, cuz baba kan yaby yqabla gabil la yag3ed m3ay… dakhal 3end baba elsa3a 6 o 6ala3 elsa3a 6:45…. (El thaaher baba kan y7alil his character :P)…

dag 3lai baba: ha mama wainik, akhaleeh yadkhil??

Deem: Haaaaaaa?? aaaaammm,, shlooon!!

Mama: shfeeeeeeeeeech tdooodahtai!! khala ydesh yalla sami belra7man o nezlay,, ba3dain mn mota kil hal adab wel 7aya!

Deem: (ya rabi 7ata wana metwatra tadgeeer) ok baba yalla I’m coming..

baba dakhal el walad belsaloon yan6erni… o nezaltla…

Deem: Hi (dont ask me shako gelt Hi,, ga3da esboo3 atedarab 3la el kalam o taleeha Hi :P)

Msh: Hala walla

Shaking hands…

Deem: Kaifik? (nesait enna kuwaity ma yadri shno Kaifik)

Msh: Tmam enty shloonich? shakhbaarich?

Deem: Ana zaina, el7amdella 3la elsalama…

Msh: Alla ysalmich,,, oh gabil la ansa,, (mesak bouquet ward abyath “elly tshofoona up belsoora” o 3a6ani eyah)..

Ana hny khageeeeeeeeeeeeaeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat o started blushing :)

Deem: Oh, thaaanx, thats so sweet.. wow marra 7elweeeen.. 3ad tadri ana amoot belward el abyath, thx

Msh: Shda3wa,, aham shy u like it.. So tell me Deem, enty what do u do al7ean, I remember ommy galatli u work at a bank..

Deem: (dam t3arf shako asking:P) Yes, I do work at the bank and finishing my last semester at university.. wenta what do u do?

Msh: Madri if they told u, 6ab3an ana 7alyan ga3d akamil my PHD at Cambridge, bageeli 3 months o akhalis,, o 3endi my own business..

Deem: shloon el wath3 hnak?

Msh: Walla ya Deem (here ana again khagait lama gal ya Deem 7asait kenna y3arefni mn zmaan) mo sahla elga3da hnak broo7y.. bs yemkin cuz 24 hour derasa o karf, alha shway..

Deem: khalas hanat, mashallah kilaha 3 months o tkhalis..

Bedeena nakheth ra7atna shway, weltawator ra7….

Shsooolafna 3anna ba3ad? 3an el bank, o 3an shegla, o 3an el kuwait wel s3odia, o 3an ahalna… ya3ni kan mostly 3momeyaaat, ga3adna almost an hour, ba3dain ja my brother, o salam 3aleeh, then ohwa gal 3an ethenkom o mesha……

My brother ygooli: haaaaaa ashooof el3am mn awalha 7beeeeeeeeeb :P

 How he looks?

Marra taghayar 3an ma athker, 6weel, jesma zain, mo th3eef, bs 3areeth, 7asait ana namla 3enda :P,, 7en6awi, mamloo7 bs embayen enna older than 25… ya3ni elly yshoofa ya36ee senna mo asghar.. shanabata khafeeeeeeeeeeeefa,, wyha ntheef :P mo mbayen sha3ra mn ta7t el ghetra bs shakla mgare3 :P ya3ni he was ok :)

My empression:

Do u beleive it if I tell u MA ADRI????????????????????

ya3ni ok i like him, damma khafeef ya3ni ma 7aseata thegeel 3la galbi, mukha ntheef, y3arf shloon yetkalam m3 elbnaya, eslooba fe elkalam 7elo.. ga3deta kanat 7elwa welwagt mae bser3a… Bs still 6ab3an ma 3endi any feelings! o ma 7asait yes wala no but MAADRI..!!

For now, mani gadra afakir bshy, cuz 7asa rasi thgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel,, bs as7a bokra ill think about it :)

Happy Valentine’s Day

Jpm2upmMon, 12 Feb 2007 21:21:02 +000007 19, 2007

Ok,, I know Valentine is on 14th not 12th Feb :P

But since I might be busy,, I’d like to wish you all a “Happy Valintine’s Day” or “Days” filled with love and happiness :)

I love you all bdooooon estethnaaaa2 ;)

and always remember:

 Valentine is nothing like
A chocolate or a rose…
For in a week these shall be gone,
But Valentines remain… 

Deem Tagged By Missy

Jam2uamFri, 09 Feb 2007 03:12:38 +000007 19, 2007

As I’ve been tagged by Missy (http://www.miss22.blogspot.com/) on “Ten Things You Don’t Know About Me” here is my list:

1- I’m so sensitive that I get hurt easily.  

2- I love chocolate and my mood is changed after I ate it :P

3- I have a teddy bear sine I was 12 that I cant sleep without

4- I always wanna love and be loved

5- I read one book monthly, mostly romantic novels :P

6- Referring to romantic novels, yes I am so romantic and influenced by what’s written in romantic stories, which is too bad in our days

  

7- I do write my journal and it has everything about me (EVERYTHING)

8- I love fashion and going shopping especially when I feel bad

9- I do take care of myself as well as taking care of others

10-   and,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, I’m stubborn :)

*Thanks Missy 7abeebty :*

Deem & Her Engagement (Update)

Jam2uamTue, 06 Feb 2007 09:20:30 +000007 19, 2007

Ok guys,, I have nothing to post except to tell you that I have agreed after 100 times thinking, thinking and thinking :)

And meen aqna3ni???? Khali (6ab3an kuwaity o yabeeni akheth kuwaiti methla :P)

la seriously,, gali ektheeha bel6ool wel3arth,, ohwa mo mesta3yel wala entay mesta3yela enshala sena khe6baa,, t3arafi 3aleeh o shoofi shloon, yemkin t7ebeena o ma tegdereen t3esheen bdoona (I was blushing o khali ysoolif o howa alla yhadeeh m6aye7 elmeyana:P)

So 3la goolat khali,, I’ll take my time to get to know him and his family(shwarana:P),

who knows… la bs seriously at least sena khe6ba :P ba3ad time is passing so fast al7ean meta yamdeeni a3arfa :P

**His mother called last night,, and they will be visiting us next Wednesday.. 6ab3an ana mn ams nightmares :P

So I’ll meet him next Wed. ed3oooooooooli plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz and I’ll update you awal bawal ;)

Deem missed Paris

Jam2uamFri, 02 Feb 2007 00:33:43 +000007 19, 2007

Oh I really do,, law alif eldenya kilaha et-thal Paris gheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer…. what I miss there??? hmmmm,, alot of things:

  • The weather,,, aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah aljaw hnaaaaaak 3ajeeeb walla,, hawaaaaaahom yred elroooooo7…
  • The coffee,, 6a3m el coffee at Paris Cafe’s shy thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaany…..
  • The calm and relxtion atmosphere,,, a7es hnaaak a3sabi tertaaaaaaaaaaaa7 hdoooo2 o ra7a o wanasa o bs… mafe 3awar ras, wala ez3aaaj wala nas t6ale3 nas, kil wa7id b7ala,, rawaaaaaaaaaaaaa2 o bs….
  • Laduree chocolate cake,,  hmmmmmmmm yummmyyyy yummyyyyy ten3esh elgaaaaalb :p
  • The white hair French man, setting in the table next to mine at Fouquet’s Cafe, every morning, staring at me while im having my morning coffee, and I swear to God lee yoooomkom ma adri shsaaalfeta… 
  • The amazing French boutiques elly mafe menha beldenyaaaaa,,, kan zain law I could buy all the special exotic cloths there :)
  • Disney store at Champse Elyseese,,, 6ab3an law t3arfooon,,, I used to spend all my money there bdooon la a7es,, adkhil alma7al elsa3a 11 am a6la3 2 or 3 pm :P
  • Walking at Concorde and its garden,,,, aaaaaaaaaaaaaah qemma bel hdooooooooooo2 welra7aaaa…
  • The Vandom,, my favorite place 6ab3an,, and don’t ask why… wela 3adi u can ask :P,,,,, Ok well,, there at Vandom there is the Ritz hotel,where we stayed and where it was the first time 3araft what love is… Full Stop :P
  • Going out from the hotel and walking just like that without any goal but exploring new places…. wonderful.

Bs khalaaaas law ra7 akamil ma akhalis wala ba3ad esooob3 :P

Madri leesh bs ma alaaaagi nafsi ella hnaaak,, a7ebha walla a7ebha,, I wanna go ther now :(

Shraykom nrooo7 kilina hnaaak guys?????????? :P:P :P